Found My “Ex” Boyfriend On a Hookup Dating Website

Hi there, last week I found my boyfriend (ex now), of 5 and a half years on a hookup dating website. I came across this dating site when I tried to upload an article, I had taken my bf’s phone and the browser displayed the last page of seeking hookup he had been on. I asked him face to face whether if he had been cheating on me or ever had.

Ridiculously, he told me that he had kissed a woman while working at a drunken staff party one year ago, they were close friends of each other, then they both stopped the kiss and said they couldn’t do it. This girl had passed away nearly a half year ago, and a Moroccan woman listened to her gut. I remember since that, my “ex” boyfriend thought that he had caused her death badly for just a work colleague.

I am the kind of woman who thought it doesn’t matter, just a kiss that would not bother me so much. But what made me so obsessed with was that he continued to keep such a close friendship with her, from up to the end of her death. If she is a temptation, should he stick to her himself? I can't control myself doubting what happened more between them.

As for this hookup dating site for adults, his excuse was that he had been wanting wanted to talk to me, but wanted to sleep with a woman first. Is there someone who can explain this to me? I am 25 years old, he is 27 years old, maybe we are serious too young. We have lived together for nearly three years, and I had trusted him for 100% before I found that he had been being on this adult hookup dating site for a long time.

However, what kills me the most is that he has always been a person who promotes constantly our relationship. He gave me his phone password. I could see that he had so many msg women that he was trying to meet for a strings hookup.

Before I came back, I had been left him for a whole week because it seemed to be like the case. From then on, I saw and snooped that this hookup dating site wasn’t cut off at once, but other accounts had been opened a few months before I knew that. You may think that I am so stupid, but I want to forgive him because he said he would never sleep with anyone because this was just online dating, I thought this could be possible.

When I first approached his other no-strings dating websites, he just blatantly lied about it to my face. He said that he wouldn't go to these hookup apps again. It seems that he has not so far, but I just couldn’t help driving me crazy thinking every day that he was cheating on me and he had been all the time playing me and my heart. How could I know the truth?

Has anyone no experience with their partner on hookup dating sites? The facts are that I don't want to make love with anyone else. Because I love my “ex” boyfriend. As he did, I believe that he does love me, but I am starting to think love is not enough for us to be together again. So we break up, I won’t ever be bothered by these crazy thoughts.

Last but important, I hope boys who have girlfriends, do not easily touch the bottom line of hers, especially dating with others, and cheating on her. Once you cross the line, everything is ruined.